1.Your name spelled backwards.
lehcar

2. Last incoming call on your phone?
tim

3. What is the last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
music

4. What's your favorite restaurant?
Kabuki

5. Last time you swam in a pool?
probably 2 years ago

6. Britney Spears is a skank. Agree or disagree?
wouldn’t know

7. How many kids do you want?
not many

8. Type of music you dislike most?
everything my roommate listens to

9. What was the last thing you bought?
a luna bar and other goodies from wegmans

10. Have you ever ridden on a motorcycle?
no. don’t really like them at all

11. Do you have a crush on someone?
no

12. Ever made a prank phone call?
of corse

13. Listening to music?
watching Top Chef on tv

14. Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
probably not

15. What clothes are you wearing right now?
blue pj’s and a white tank

16. Do you have a garden?
no, it could be nice though

17. What's your favorite comic strip?
hah

18. Do you really know all the words to your national anthem?
I think so

19. Bath or shower, morning or night?
I love baths, and defiantly night

20. Hello or goodbye?
hello

21. Favorite pizza topping?
cheese tortellini. I’ve only found it at one place though and I haven’t had it for like 5 years

22. Chips or Popcorn?
chips.

23. Favorite color?
Lots

24. What did your last text message you received say?
“Perfect” from Jaymie. He was referring to this weekend

25. Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
no.

26. Orange Juice or apple juice?
orange

27. Who was the last person you ate dinner with?
lindsay, eric, and tim in Ithica

28. What did the last text message that you sent say?
“Tomorrow for dinner sounds good” to jaymie

29. Lucky number?
Don’t know. I hate gambling and such

30. last time you ate home grown tomatoes?
probably when my grandma used to have a garden, so about 6 years ago. Which is really sad cause home grown tomatoes are real good
31. Have you ever won a trophy?
Soccer ones that everyone gets. I actually just threw a bunch of them away.

32. Are you a good cook?
no, but I’m not terrible either

33. Do you know how to pump your own gas?
Yes. I did today. $30 down the drain in 2 minutes

34. Do the chinese really use cats in their food?
I choose not to believe that

35. Sprite or 7-Up?
7-Up

36. Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school?
no

37. Last thing you ate?
Luna bar

38. Ever thrown up in public?
no

39. Would you rather find true love or be a millionaire?
true love.

40. Do you believe in love at first sight?
no

41. Think fast, what would you like right now?
To be out of my dorm and outside enjoying this beautiful night with someone

43. Where were you for Valentine's day?
At school I think

44. When is the last time you laughed?
A few minutes ago

45. What's your favorite animal?
Cats and chipmunks

46. What was the name of your first pet?
Sammy

47. Who was the second to last person to call you?
Dad

48. What are your plans for the weekend?
party at Trina’s on Friday and studying for finals

49. Yankees? or Mets?
don’t care

50. How do you feel now that this survey is over?
the same as when i started it?

i have class in 20 mins which is great because i can get out of this room.
I've only been in here for less than half an hour today but i already cant stand it
megan and her friends are now talking about me while i'm in the room.
they fucking suck at whispering.
On the bright side i got $50 back for some on my books which means i am going to the mall and buying some type of clothing because i havent done that in months. I havent really bought anything for months let alone clothes. Tim has been buying everything including money for the tolls so i could get back to school. I can't wait to work and to be at home and to be surrounded by positivity.

1. How tall are you barefoot?
5'3"

2. Have you ever smoked heroin?
no

3. Do you own a gun?
no. and I never will

4. Rehab?
no

5. Do you get nervous before "meeting the parents????"
i guess. i get nervous when meeting anyone new

6. What do you think of hot dogs?
gross. fake ones are gross too

7. What's your favorite Christmas song?
don't really have a favorite

8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
water and coffee. maybe some grapefruit juice if im lucky

9. Do you do push-ups?
if i could do them then maybe i would

10. Have you ever done ecstasy?
no. lots of old friends from camillus seem to be real into it these days though

11. Do you kiss on the first date?
it happens

12. Do you like painkillers?
fuckyeah!!!!!!1dgkdng4f9iihf

13. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?
awing them with my knowledge.

14. Do you own a knife?
butter

15. Do you have A.D.D.?
doesn't everyone these days

16. Date Of Birth?
feb 9th 1987

17. Top 3 thoughts at this exact moment:
1. Stressed
2. Excited
3. Sleepy

18. Name the last 3 things you have bought:
1. Food
2. Food
3. Makeup

19. Name five drinks you regularly drink:
1. Water
2. Coffee
3. Juice
4. Soda on occasion
5. Alcohol

20. What time did you wake up today?
8:30am

21.Current hair?
a bit short

22. Current worry
huge assignment in archaeology, philosophy paper, racism paper, finals.

23. Current hate?
my anthropology professor cause she’s scatterbrained and wears mismatching earrings

24. Favorite place to be?
warm sunny places with friends and food

25. Least favorite place to be?
my dorm room

26. Where would you like to go?
home

27. Do you own slippers?
i should hope so

28. Where do you think you'll be in 10 yrs?
i really don't know

29. Do you burn or tan?
buuuurn

30. Last thing you ate?
a bagel

31. Would you be a pirate?
probably not. female pirates were usually just prostitutes

32. Last time you had an alcoholic drink?
last friday with lindsay and jaymie

33. What songs do you sing in the shower?
lots

34. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
scary men with knives. i had an escape route though.

35. What's in your pockets right now?
nothing, i'm wearing pj's

36. Last thing that made you laugh?
megan, cause she’s just ridiculous

37. Best bed sheets you had as a child?
brownish red ones with sparrows

38. Worst injury you've ever had?
sprained ankle

40. How many TVs do you have in your house?
4. eh, that’s embarrassing.

41. Best physical trait?
i like my shoulders

42. Do you have a crush on someone?
no

43. Does someone have a crush on you?
no

45. What is your favorite book?
oh gosh. anything steinbeck, and i really like the bell jar even though people make fun of it.

46. What is your favorite candy?
i like white chocolate, other then that i don't really eat much candy

47. What song do you want played at your wedding?
haven't thought about it

48. What song do you want played at your funeral?
DEFINITELY haven’t thought about it

49. What were you doing 12AM last night?
reading

50. Do you love the pain of tattoos?
i wouldn't really know. But if it ever happens i'm sure i wont.

I will be home(for good)one month from today. hell yeah.

Brockport just brought in Vitamin Water this semester and they're already getting rid of it. I asked the lady at the café why and she said because they only sold the vitamin Water for a trial period to see how it would sell and when they saw it was doing well they would have to switch over to this other brand (Life Water) because it's backed by PEPSI. capitalism, capitalism, capitalism.

fuck the girls at this school. i went into the bathroom last night and one of Megans friends says to me "is Megan already asleep?" and i say "yeah she goes to bed wicked early and then gets up early, it's kind of annoying, haha." Then her friend agrees with me and laughs.
Fast forward to the next morning when i hear megan on the phone telling her boyfriend about how wrong it was of me to be "talking shit" about her to her friends. wow.
I had managed to stay out of their stupid bullshit drama this far, but I guess the only way to really do that is to literally ignore the fact that they even exist and never talk to them, even casually. So that's what I’ll be doing from now on.
I even confronted Megan about it asking her why she was mad and just like her she turns into the biggest pus ever and says in this wicked timid high voice "Oh no, I’m not mad. Don’t worry about it". The bitch can only say what she really feels when she thinks people aren’t listening, but otherwise she folds like a toddler.

I just heard from jaymie that there is a huge urban outfitters, H&M, Puma, etc within walking distance from where we're staying in Philly. Unfortunately, both Lindsay and myself have basically no money and i'm not sure how know we're going to resist, we may have to resort to thievery. ughhhhhhhhhh

Bored. Really really bored.



1) Are your parents married or divorced?
happily divorced.

2) Vegetarian?
Yes

3) Heaven?
Heaven What? I don’t believe in it and I’m pretty sure it doesn’t only consist of virgins and booze.

4)Come close to dying?
Nope

5) What jewelry do you wear?
Earrings, cheap ones. Sometimes a necklace.

6) Are you eating?
Saltine Crackers. I wish I had some cheese

7) Drinking?
Water

8) Makeup?
Not today.

9) Would you ever have plastic surgery?
Hell no.

10) What do you wear to bed?
Usually a tank top and underwear, it’s real hot in my dorm room.

11) Have you ever done anything illegal?
Nothing beyond underage drinking and speeding probably.

12) Can you roll your tongue?
Yes

13) What kind of watch(es) do you wear?
None, ew.

14) Future child's name
Probably something Asian cause I wanna adopt a cute baby from Japan or Cambodia.

15) Do you snore?
Sometimes when I’m drunk

16) If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would you go?
So many places. Thailand, Japan, Rome, London, Australia, San Francisco again, Southern California too. The list goes on forever.

17) Gold or silver?
They’re both kinda tacky in different ways.

18) Hamburger or hot dog?
Boca spicy chicken patty

19) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
I don’t know, maybe sushi, or scalloped potatoes, or stir fry.

20) Beach, city, or country?
Beach

21) Where do you eat?
On my bed

22) When's the last time you cried?
Last week when I was really frustrated about school

23) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?
Not sure why I’d ever have to, but yes.

24) Ever been involved with the police?
One time a Camillus police officer picked up carrie frank, maria, and I for walking back from dunken doughnuts at “too late an hour”. That’s about it though.

25) Have you ever got into a fist fight?
No

26) Current Crush?
Don’t have a crush. I like tim a lot though.

27) Beach or pool?
Beach

28) Can you cross your eyes?
No

29) What's your favorite song at the moment?
Joanna Newsom-Peach, Plum, Pear

30) Window seat or aisle?
Window!

31) Ever met any famous bands/singers?
I’ve meet some bands, they’re not exactly “famous” though

32) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
Twirl

33) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey?
Neither.

34) How long does your shower last?
10 or 15 mins. Sometimes longer on cold lazy days.

35) Do you drive a stick?
No. Lindsay tried to teach me one time though.

36) Self-conscious?
Yes

37) What time do you get up?
9:45am on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. 8:45am on Tuesday and Thursday. And A lot later on weekends.

38) Where do you wish you where?
Home

39) Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Not exactly.

40) Last gift you received?
Mug with our picture on it from Tim.

41) Last sport you played?
Soccer like 2 years ago

42). Things you spend a lot of money on?
Clothes, books, food.

43) Last wedding attended?
my mom’s. ha.

44) Favorite fast food restaurant?
I don’t eat fast food ever. I guess the pita pit if that even counts.

45) Where do you work?
Pete’s in the summer

46) Can you cook?
Some things.

47) Most hated food:
Bananas. Anything mushy

48) Can you sing?
I dabble.

49) When was your last kiss?
This morning when Tim left

50) Favorite Alcoholic drink:
white wine.

Oh and one more thing. If you don't like drag shows, just don't fucking go to drag shows. In America you have that right. And maybe someday, if you're lucky, you can live in a country where you’re forced to attend events like this one, then maybe some of you can actually learn what real fun is.
Please don’t act like some martyr trying to uphold the schools “high moral standards”, cause it's pretty much well known that the strip club downtown has higher moral values than Brockport.

Sometimes I get really angry about the fact that my parents and I are giving suny brockport thousands of dollars. Its amazing that in the year 2006 at this self proclaimed "liberal university" the schools administrators are so outwardly biased against any and all minority groups on campus. I can't imagine what it would feel like being homosexual here, let alone being african american, hispanic, or worse, one of the french foreign exchange students who get harassed on a daily basis. Pretty much everyone else on campus is white and catholic and therefore conservative and unwilling to "tolerate" anyone that doesn’t fit into that box.

I mean come on, if it aint’ white, it aint’ right.

I really doubt that anyone from my building who actually signed that petition to put down the drag show has ever even gone to one, let alone has any idea what one actually consists of. They probably heard from mommy and daddy that it’s some unholy brothel with stripping and sex toys galore, when in reality it would be 5 to 10 of there class mates dressing up and singing some songs.

But of corse the debauchery that goes on at the local frat houses every weekend is fine! You know, gang rape and drugging is one thing, but when it comes to gays (gasp!), now that’s just not right!!! And the utter stupidity of those 75 morons from my building isn't even what bothers me that most, its that fact that the student activity board members actually took them seriously, calling them “a true representation of the student body”. Um, I don't know if I'm missing something here, but in my eyes all white, all freshman, and almost all male doesn’t even come close to representing the attitudes of everyone on campus. Did even one off campus student sign that petition. No! Did even one minority sign it. No! Did one homosexual sign it. No! Yet despite all of this, the student activity board still decided to cut the drag show budget almost in half. Awesome Brockport! Way to alienate a few more students, and make them feel even less at home on campus then they’ve undoubtedly felt since the moment they stepped on it.

Year Gradugated: 2005

1. Who was your best friend(s)? Lindsay and Kassia

2. What sports did you play? Soccer, but I got over it my junior year

3. What kind of car did you drive? 1993 chevy cavalier

4. It's Friday night, where were you? hm, probably forest hill or Lindsay’s house. Maybe shove park in the earlier days.

5. Were you a party animal? hell yeah

6. Were you in the "In Crowd"? If you consider me and Lindsay a crowd, then yes.

7. Ever skip school? one time erin and i skipped latin and that crazy guy in the truck followed us down my street.

8. Ever smoke? on occasion

9. Were you a nerd? no

10. Did you get suspended/expelled? no

11. Can you sing the school song? no, I can hum the tune though.

12. Who was your favorite teacher? I’d say Mrs.Richards for many reasons. Her fake accent, her crazy pear shaped body, and the fact the she managed to make me a better writer.

13. Favorite class? I don’t know. Maybe latin.

14. What was your schools full name? West Genesee Senior High School

15. School mascot? Wildkatssss

16. Did you go to Prom? yup, with tim.

17. If you could go back and do it over, would you? i guess. all in all i had fun. I would have taken back my crush on one of the Rodgers twins in 9th grade though.

18. What do you remember most about graduation? Standing in between Jeff Jollar and Bobby Jones who made me look like a midget because they're both over 6ft tall.

19. Were you ever posted up on the senior wall? Not sure what that is, but probably no.

20. Did you have a job your senior year? for the last two months of school i worked at Petes

21. Who did you date? hahah! Lots of dumb people.

22. Where did you go most often for lunch? the cafeteria.. It would have been nice to eat outside in the summer but they didn’t let us.

23. Have you gained weight since then? I hope not.

24. What did you do after graduation? To my moms house for cake and eventually to Lindsay’s graduation partay.

I'm in a good mood today. Despite the fact that I couldn't find any veggie sushi for the 800th day in a row. The last time I even saw any was when Tim was here for valentines day and he got some. I really think that the reason why he's so positive all the time is just because he's so lucky.
I wish he was coming to visit this weekend instead of next, I miss him and need some sexual satisfaction badly. It really helps to release all the stresses and tensions of college.
I was thinking about it the other day and I figured out that I only see him two or thee times a month, and each visit usually only lasts for about a day. It amazes me that we manage to have a good relationship in this situation. It’s seriously horrible. But on the other hand it makes me that much more excited for summer and living in Syracuse next semester. There’s only about two months left which is soooo exciting. And because I don't have Tim or many friends here to distract me, I'm going to try and get at lest a 3.8 this semester. In the fall I got a 3.5 so I think if I just work really hard I can do it!!

Oh and also, I have about $50 (at the most) for Philly, and about half of that I have to pitch in for gas, so it should be interesting to see how I can stretch $25 for food and alcohol for three days.

It's strange going hours without talking because there is literally just no one, and every hour spent here just meshes together and makes every day look identical to the last.
I just need someone to talk to right now.

TEN Random Things About Me:
1.I get really bad hangovers when I drink wine
2.I have leopard print pillow cases and a floral comforter and therefore I am tacky.
3.I find something to sew whenever I'm bored at school
4.I buy way too many teal colored shirts
5.I'm actually excited about going to OCC
6.I really want to nominate my archaeology professor to be on the show What Not To Wear
7.I get a new bruise everyday. Yesterdays was from falling off the 10ft high beds at RIT.
8.I miss my car
9.I miss my cat
10.I wish I had better skin

NINE Ways To Win My Heart:
1.Be passionate about your beliefs and opinions.
2.Make me feel beautiful.
3.Tell me everything.
4.
5.
6.
7.
8.
9.

EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
1.Get to the point where I don't have to change my outfit five times a day.
2.Drive across the country with someone I love
3.Graduate from college
4.Realize what I want to do with my life
5.Lose all or most of my insecurities
6.Exercise once in a while
7.Quit smoking forever
8.Go a week without fighting with my mom

SEVEN Things That Annoy Me:
1.Dr.Phil
2.Dr.Phils wife
3.Dudes that take pictures of there cars and post them on myspace
4.Girls that say they can't be friends with other girls because they're "too Dramatic"
5.Anarchism
6.The fact that Americans have made people like Howard Stern rich and famous.
7.Bananas and Banana flavored things

SIX Things I Believe In:
1.love
2.hate
3.
4.
5.
6.

FIVE Things I'm Afraid Of:
1.Never making an impact on the world
2.Getting fat
3.Getting old
4.Killing someone because they told me to go tanning
5.Relying on a guy to make me happy

FOUR Of My Favorite Items In My Room:
1.All of my pictures.
2.The mirror bill made me
3.My computer
4.My bed

THREE Things I Do Everyday:
1.Brush my hair
2.Eat Special K
3.Surf the web

TWO Things I Want To Do Right Now:
1.Take a 6 hour nap
2.Talk to my dad

ONE Person I Want To See Right Now:
1.sorry no. norman, kassia, tim, lindsay, abby.

I am a cuddler: True dat.

I am an only child: False.

I am Catholic: False

I am currently in my pajamas: True. I am more often then not here in Brockport.

I am currently pregnant: False.

I am currently single: False!!!!

I am currently suffering from a broken heart: False

I am okay at styling other people's hair: False. Really bad at it actually.

I am left handed: False.

I am married: False.

I am addicted to my myspace: True. Very very true

I am online 24/7, even as an away message: False

I am very shy around the opposite gender at first: False. Unless they’re wicked attractive or interesting in some way that would intimidate me.

I bite my nails: False

I can be paranoid at times: True. All the time is more like it.

I currently regret something that I have done: True

When I get mad I curse frequently: True

I enjoy jazz music: True, some I guess.

I enjoy smoothies: True

I enjoy talking on the phone:True.

I have a cell phone: True.

I have/had a hard time paying attention at school: True.

I have a lot to learn: True. everyone does/

I have a pet: False...I used to though:(

I have a secret that I am scared to reveal: False

I have all my grandparents: True

I have at least one brother: False

I have been to another country: True. Canada!!

I have been told that I am smart: True. Probably by dumb people.

I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor: True. But only by people at Brockport who don’t get me.

I have OR HAD broken a bone: False

I have Caller I.D. on my phone: True.

I have bathed someone: Um True? I’ve taken a bath with someone, I’m not exactly sure if I’ve technically “bathed” anyone as of yet.

I have changed a diaper: False

I have changed a lot over the past year: True

I have done something illegal: True.

I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color: True.

I have had major/minor surgery: False

I have killed another person: False

I have had my hair cut within the last week: I trim my bangs on a daily basis, its become an obsession.

I have had the cops called on me: False

I have mood swings: True.

I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life: True

I have rejected someone before: True.

I have seen The Lord of the Rings trilogy: True. I am dating Tim Hunt.

I have seen the television show The O.C: True. Megan and her BFF’s watch it in out room every Thursday, and she has it on dvd. They say its one of those shows that you watch once and get hooked, but I beg to differ.

I have watched Sex and the City: True!!

I like Shakespeare: True. Kinda.

I like the taste of blood: What? False!

I love to cook: False. I think one would actually have to cook before they could love it.

I like to sing: True

I love sleeping: True.

I love to play computer games: False.

I love to shop: True.

I miss someone right now: True. Wicked bad.

I own 100 CDs or more: True

I own a library card: True. But I can’t use it because I have about $30 in late fee’s.

I read books for pleasure in my spare time: True.

I sleep a lot during the day: True. I take naps almost daily

I strongly dislike math: True.

I was born in a country other than the US: False.

I watch soap operas on a regular basis: False. Worst shows ever.

I will try almost anything once: False.

I work at a job that I enjoy: Job?

I would classify myself as ghetto: False.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free: False

I am currently wearing socks: False

I am tired: False

I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt: False

so today is my birthday and i'm actually really excited.
Hopefully today will consist of, but not be limited to...
-Endless amounts of funfetti cake
-Wine
-Lots and lots of kisses and hugs
-A sewing machine (!)
-Ballons, funny hats, etc.

The only thing i'm sad about is that i don't get to see lindsay or kassia. I haven't celebrated my birthday without lindsay for 4 or 5 years. It's just a strange feeling.

so my schedule for next semester is really good and really sucky all together.
Monday:Wednesday:Friday:
College Math (for retards) 8:15am to 9:15 (!)
Institutional Racism from 10:45am-11:45.
Tuesdays:
Into to Philosophy and Religion 9:45am-11:15
Cultural Anthropology 1:15pm-2:45.
Thursdays:
Same as Tuesdays except i have The Art of Film from 6:00pm-9:15

SO basically on mondays, wednesdays, and fridays i'm done at 12 which rocks, however i'm not sure how i'm gonna do with getting up at like 7:30. thats almost like highschoo time, ehh.
Plus i only have two classes every day except for thurdays which will be easy anyway because i heard that we watch movies almost every class. whatever i need a dumb art credit.

being forced to lsiten to kelly clarkson everyday is a really hard thing to deal with.

last night was amazing.
I loved the club we went to and i danced my ass off with gay boys for hours and it felt wonderful.
I can see Jaymie and i becoming really close and i was really impressed with his friends.

For a minute when i was in the back of his car driving through rochester with the yeah yeah yeahs blasting, i closed my eyes and it almost felt like home.

Today I was sitting on a bench. Smoking. Relaxing. When all of a sudden this tornado-like gust of wind comes out of nowhere and a hoard of huge acorns fall on my head. I think this experience represents the luck I've been having lately, symbolically that is.